And I like to think that only because they arent physically here doesnt mean Im not a mom. This is a safe place for mothers, fathers, grandparents, and other family members to remember children who were lost to abortion. I took away all the vitamins, iron, proteins, calcium and every bit of you in me. Good luck with that husband. Anything further than 6 weeks and I could not have possibly stood firm on my decision. I think about it most days (I would be due on 30th May which coincidentally is my birthday) but I dont dwell on it anymore and do appreciate that for me it just wasnt the right time and I was not ready or prepared to give a child the life it deserves. On the day of the appointment I cried so much I couldnt get myself to do it and as time went on I decided to keep him. I cry also. I am nearly 25 now and had an abortion at 17. I just passed the due date of what would have been my baby had i decided not to terminate. Please please please pray for us so that my darling would come back to me. The Baby Must Be. He doesnt want to start over and says that we are too old. In his remarks before Congress, Dr. Levatino describes in gruesome detail the procedure of killing a 24-week-old unborn baby. Ill always be one. And then I blurt out, without any grace, and much louder than I intend, Im pregnant. His eyes get wide as frisbees and he says, Wait. Truth is, I have no job, I am back in school with one child taken care of by my parents, I cannot bring another right now and of I did this new opportunity would go away. I felt like he had to know it is his right to know. Only a few days have gone by since I was conceived and I am now growing in your tummy. Your dad is an alcoholic. Mom, please listenplease. [https://www.coparents.com/sperm-donors/how-to-find-a-free-sperm-donor-online.php]. When I first found out I initially was a bit upset but over a few days I grew very attached. I wish I could advise a podcast or supportive tv bit for her to watch. I am going through the same exact thing you are. Im maybe 3-5 weeks pregnant but already feel attached. I just wanted to say thank-you for sharing your story. Maybe they never will. I go to sleep the same way I have every night since I found out about you: heartbroken and tearful. I was literally petrified and afraid that no matter what I tried to do, what if I couldnt get it all in order before my baby got here? I always imagine what he or she would have looked like and I feel I failed my child. Im at the point where leaving him is the only option because each day he tells me to get an abortion in person, texts, etc. And soon I'll get my own fingers and toes. I did it because I loved that little soul so much that I knew he deserved better. She was worth fighting for. My significant other is leaving the decision to me and will support either way it goes but I just dont know what to do. I too am going through my second one and I feel absolutely horrible, so I completely understand what you are feeling. He would have been 7 and his name was Dyno. All of this is to saymom, you have a child, it's me. My name is John, and. Im 9 weeks pregnant. This is just not exactly what I wanted for her and Im scared to lose my best friend in a sense because Im not quite ready to grow up that fast. It will be 8 years since my abortion in July and I still think about it every day. A lot of people who are not able to have children would love to adopt. The first line showed up dark pink as it always did, and then, suddenly, a faint second pink line emerged. This broke him completely when I got the abortion done. I was 14 weeks with two boys already. I know thats the right decision but I cant stop crying or thinking about baby . I have never cried to hard in my life. Do I honor my heart and have another sweet lamb, potentially subjecting this human to another absentee parent who secretly resents their existence- OR- do I get the abortion. But I dont regret it either. I wish I could turn back the hands of time. I hope to someday get to tell my child face to face that I love them and Im sorry and they deserved better. The saline solution burned the baby's skin and poisoned him or her. I felt like death every day sometimes unable to stay out longer than 2 hours outside. but something I think people needed to read. And Ill honour them both every minute of every day. I had a disease that I didnt know about that affected the baby because of my bloodstream. Im grateful I was in a position to have options and make a choice as a woman. I didnt touch you, but I felt you. For My Mommy (the cry of an unborn child) Each holiday, any milestone or time marker, what my world would be if I had chosen differently. This poem represents the voice of an unborn child pleading for its life. Your state requires that one of your parents be told of your decision 48 hours before your abortion. My periods had always been very irregular and I had taken over the counter tests when it got late but I got negatives the both times so I was certain I wasnt pregnant. Love to each of you xxxxxxxxx. I never knew if I wanted kids or not or if Id make a good mother. We don't need to live in a big fancy house, Her due date has passed now. My boyfriend told me to abort mine and I dumped him and made that decision on my own. A letter to my unborn child - you deserve an explanation We named you to help us grieve for you By anonymous on 19/11/2013 surgical abortion abortion 18 weeks Firstly I need to tell you that me & your daddy have decided to name you. All I could say was 'I'm sorry, I'm sorry, baby, I'm sorry.' As a mother, you never, ever, ever forget. That, and I literally broke up with him two days prior. The last paragraph brought tears to my eyes. Im 22 and I recently went through my 2nd abortion. I was pretty much pressured to become pregnant by my boyfriend at the time (now very ex). I regret having the abortion because of many things and I ask hem to have another baby even if my situation was the same but he said he didnt want to have a baby he was hart broken every time he see kids he would say my baby wouldve been her or his age and that kills me inside I cry for so many nights and days I still do. The abortion debate has been going on for ages. I couldnt face a potential miscarriage, still birth or birth defects and my doctors had no guidance for me and what I was dealing with regarding my health. Pro . Someone please talk and guide me into a direction. I was its mother. I am in the middle of mine as I type this. Thank you for sharing. My best friend just found out she is pregnant a few days ago and she is only 19. I was a 19 year old college student with absolutely no plans to marry or have kids at that point. I regret my decision every day. Breaks my heart. A week before the abortion he changed his mind and got attached to the baby. She tells me, You dont have to do this. I cry. I already felt so attached. Cate, I feel that it was indeed the best decision for me but Im so emotionally torn that i feel horrible for doing it i was also about 5 weeks . And it bothers me that my husbands doesnt realize the pain Im going through. There arent any protesters out that day and Im grateful. I had not passed my probation period and I wanted to prove myself, to be as good as I could be. My husband is pretty headstrong about me aborting.. my heart is broken. A judge can excuse you from this requirement. At 18 weeks, April and her husband found out that their baby had lethal skeletal dysplasia. I had been taking pregnancy tests every cycle for the past six months just to have peace of mind. I work a half day, then your dad picks me up and we drive to Planned Parenthood. My husband was in prison, I cheated on him, got pregnant, he gave me the choice between keep my baby or our marriage. Im 28 now and I dont see having a kids in the future maybe because I cant forgive myself with what Ive done. I too, am at the beginning of my career and am receiving more opportunities to advance as well but I have a long way to go. Sometimes four days late, sometimes ten days you get the idea. All stories are moderated before being published. I did regret it but I cant imagine hows my life would had been if I didnt do it. My daughter will be three next month and I just found out that Im pregnant. Because we still didnt get married when our family asked us we use to say next year next year but now I dont think if its ever gone happen. Ang, your situation is same as mine. I regret my decision so much and cannot put it into words. We dont say any words, but our embraces tell each other that we did the right thing. But I dont want an abortion.. its heartbreaking ? Hi. Last Wednesday we went for the abortion and it has been the hardest week physically and mentally for me. Please don't cry, remember that I love you and I'll be waiting for you with open arms. You have a child. Thank you for this. My boyfriend stayed with me but after a while he started blaming me and our relationship change . Now that he had finally accepted it, it officially became reality. Our hearts held firm. I was very confused. In South Africa, 85 000 abortions were induced in the year 2010 according to abort97.co.za. I cant seem to decide on this but I know I have to do it And Ive been crying the past few days because I know I dont want to be separated from my first baby but I cant.. Abandonment threatI couldnt believe it. Its been 3 months since my abortion. it didnt take him long to move past but its something I struggle with frequently in the form of nightmares and guilt. but no one wants that for me. I can hardly keep up with what I have now in my life. I wanted to be your special child. I went through every logistic financial, physical, mental to see if I could go through with it. Mamma you knew when I was placed in your womb. We started trying, but didnt expect it to come so soon. I know God and His angels will help. STOP! Im not mad at you anymore. I found out Im 6 weeks pregnant last week. I was wondering how you are feeling. My partner abandoned me and I had no money. Everyone at work keeps getting pregnant and every time I hurt. I dont know what to do, I know exactly how you feel . That exact day I started bleeding I went to the ER and they said I might miscarry again I told him and he is convinced I am going to lose the baby. I knew in my heart that I didnt want to let it go. Help us build the most popular collection of contemporary poetry on the internet! This apparently isnt convincing enough, and he asks if Ive taken any more havent I considered it could be a false positive? At times I couldnt walk, couldnt eat, loss 9 pounds in one week, shortness of breath and felt like I was having a heart attack. Theres no good option. I feel like regardless if I keep our baby or not he is not going to be apart of my life anymore. Why cant we have our dreams and a baby?